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well, some.
I should write more. I feel better when I do. So here, my friends (ok, let's be honest, no one needs to read this for me to get anything out of it, but I like to pretend I have an audience!), is a little brain dump.
What's happened to me? That's a hard question, and it needs scope.
I grew up. I went to college. I took time off. I got married. I got diagnosed with ADHD. I got divorced. I moved back to PA. I was asleep for a while, and then I woke up. I took a huge chance and moved to TX, and it was worth it. I moved to CA. I moved back to TX. I got married.
Now? Now I'm trying to sort things out. Do I want kids? Yes, and no. Part of me is selfish, but part of me thinks the smart people need to procreate, and we're pretty smart. What do I want to be when I grow up? Project Manager, I think. Just enough technical knowledge, really good at keeping schedules and herding cats.
I love my house, and my yard, and my dog and cats, and my husband. I'm more of a hermit than I used to be, but that's ok. I'd say I'm more conservative, except that I think I'm just more honest with myself about it.
I like making things. That applies to crafts and woodwork, furniture and decorations. I've usually got something in the works at any given point. As I get older, I work on finishing them more often than I used to; I have so many things half-done.
I'm backing off of my strattera, as it seems to be at least in part causing some of my anxiety. Oh, anxiety - you've been around so long, I didn't know you weren't just part of me. Let's try and sort you out, shall we? Was it ADHD I had, or just stress from my marital issues?
One of the best things about my husband is that he encourages me to take time, check things out, and see if I can get by unmedicated, or at least *less* medicated. I'd like to make music again, and my creativity has suffered greatly on medication.
The future is unwritten, but I'm kind of excited.
I should write more. I feel better when I do. So here, my friends (ok, let's be honest, no one needs to read this for me to get anything out of it, but I like to pretend I have an audience!), is a little brain dump.
What's happened to me? That's a hard question, and it needs scope.
I grew up. I went to college. I took time off. I got married. I got diagnosed with ADHD. I got divorced. I moved back to PA. I was asleep for a while, and then I woke up. I took a huge chance and moved to TX, and it was worth it. I moved to CA. I moved back to TX. I got married.
Now? Now I'm trying to sort things out. Do I want kids? Yes, and no. Part of me is selfish, but part of me thinks the smart people need to procreate, and we're pretty smart. What do I want to be when I grow up? Project Manager, I think. Just enough technical knowledge, really good at keeping schedules and herding cats.
I love my house, and my yard, and my dog and cats, and my husband. I'm more of a hermit than I used to be, but that's ok. I'd say I'm more conservative, except that I think I'm just more honest with myself about it.
I like making things. That applies to crafts and woodwork, furniture and decorations. I've usually got something in the works at any given point. As I get older, I work on finishing them more often than I used to; I have so many things half-done.
I'm backing off of my strattera, as it seems to be at least in part causing some of my anxiety. Oh, anxiety - you've been around so long, I didn't know you weren't just part of me. Let's try and sort you out, shall we? Was it ADHD I had, or just stress from my marital issues?
One of the best things about my husband is that he encourages me to take time, check things out, and see if I can get by unmedicated, or at least *less* medicated. I'd like to make music again, and my creativity has suffered greatly on medication.
The future is unwritten, but I'm kind of excited.
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